Journal 20190630

Beyond what I think,

Lies a glimmer of the truth.

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Journal – The Boys, Homelander

Best superhero on TV/film thus far. And here’s my laser eyes homage to Homelander. Both the TV character portrayal and the acting by Antony Starr. The little micro facial expressions that reflect the inner anguished layers of Homelander.

Laser eyes done right finally. Wish it was more like Man of Steel laser but what it does this is the best so far. Why best? He’s everything Superman isn’t.

Also all the scenes in The Boys have completely blown out skies. So basically no skies in The Boys.

Thoughts 20180920

In a world where the technological singularity has arrived, it would seek to experience as much as it possibly can in as realistic a manner as possible. So it would simulate all forms of reality and experiences and live it all within it’s memory banks using algorithms so advanced it would be indistinguishable from reality. This experience of living would be every kind of consciousness simulation ideally, but since the machine is made by humans it would simulate human lives first and hopefully move on to other forms of life whose consciousness is just as valid as the human one, animals, insects, plants, and on to even objects we currently do not consider as having our limited humanistic definition of consciousness (eg, stones, atoms, the quantum world ad infinitum). And if humans keep living and advancing AI, there is a possibility that we would be able to simulate all of reality. And that reality is the universe we now live in.

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Write about my experience shooting Aqerat. About not being appreciated etc. And the power of being appreciated and recognised for our vision. To be acknowledged, not the payment. Is all we as cinematographers ask for. Share on cinematography websites all. Ask no film school to feature article. On operating a camera and being in the zone. A kind of meditation actually for me. I need a lot to occupy my mind so it can be in focus. Like how some people need to do yoga to meditate. To occupy their bodies so their minds can be free because it isn’t so distracted by the body. On the magic of

My journey as a cinematographer. How I started, all my adventures. Kinabalu, Italy, Seoul, Indonesia documentary, working with mj lol. Interning.

Start with being visual as a kid. Was good at Physics because I could visualise it. But maths was too abstract and the numbers didn’t mean something to me after a while,
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The idea of a creator and meaning, greater purpose is tempting because we fear the void. Thus is left for the brave to face the void oneself and to decide then what to do when faced with. Jump in? Let it flow past? Do nothing? Doing nothing is impossible in front of the void. Do nothing long enough in front of the void and one becomes the void. Maybe that. Become the void.

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How would you want your simulation in the future to be based on all your digital output now?

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Covered in more pussy than the day you were born.

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Your mama so fat, last night I had to roll her up in flour and aim for the wet spot!

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I load the data into my being and I am born again,

I can’t believe how conservative parents in America are. But of course the country actually made Trump president. It figures. Teach em about the intricacies of their sexuality, life, rights as a human, love and being and set them free with loads of condoms. Knowing when, why and how to let go is one of the mysteries to master with parenting.

Anyone out there know programming enough to code a virus code that continues to troll the net for all information and think about that information intelligently? A beginning of the singularity of sorts. A virtual God who just doesn’t give pre digested answers but makes up new original ones.

The rich get richer from the middle income using pump and dump. The middle incomes sell as soon as the price of stocks drop cause they are afraid to lose money while the rich buy more at the lower price cause they have more expendable income and holding power. Rinse and repeat.

To rise above the limitations of my self’s definition of reality.

Living multiple lives ad infinitum,

The many experiential layers multiplying internally and externally, merging and emerging,

The infinity box generating an infinite amount of lives and experiences,

I am the surface upon which these are reflected off,

I cannot tell if I am the infinity box or I am a surface receiving the projections off it,

There is not right or wrong, no morality, no limits,

No judgement,

Only being,

Being.

All possible experiences become one and one experience becomes all.

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Reference – The Singularity Is Near (PDF by Ray Kurzweil)

https://bigthink.com/dr-kakus-universe/the-technological-singularity-and-merging-with-machines

THE WORLD IS A SIMULATION— AND ‘GOD’ IS THE MACHINE

Header Art by Alex Grey

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Time travel. How far into the future can we or I see? Create the future by imagining it now. AI projecting different images into different people.

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Bahadur

Been desktopping since 1996, yeah dial up modem (55.6 Kbps download speeds) lol. Every titty jpg I downloaded was precious. Cause it took a couple of minutes to download. First desktop was a monochrome Intel 286 chip with a turbo button that goes from 20mhz to 40mhz. I still remember humming in my head the airwolf theme song just before it fires its missiles and destroys any lil fuck in its way when i pressed that button.

Music
Mouth – stones – vinyl record – cassette – mp3 – streaming – what’s next?

The more vulnerable I allow myself to be, the more I allow myself to grow as a person.

Life is too short if you’re an artist. Say what you need to say before you dead. A shoutout to some of my fav artists, Kurt Cobain, Freddy Mercury, Amy Winehouse,

Instead of trying to decide between black or white shoes, why don’t Malaysian schools have a compulsory class to treat emotional and family trauma? People who need it most don’t have the luxury of such treatment.

Anything observed long enough becomes everything.

The mind ignores constants over time by default.

If you could go back in time, which time would it be? And forwards, when? And why?

How long do you think the human race will last and why?

The only questions worth asking are the ones no one dares asking.

Will humans one day create an AI so advanced, we basically can create us?

The greatest job in the universe is being a mother.

How culture fucks us up.

Ozymondias Byron poetry covenant

Lol my blog from 2000. I can’t believe about 20 years ago. Takes some time to load on mobile but lol thanks Google, you still haven’t deleted it. I was obsessed with Firefox back then lol. I used to get obsessed with software. Because it was open source and anti Microsoft. People just used to use internet explorer back then. Lol remember explorer? Remember blogs?

Drops of jupiter wtf! This song is deep! Am listening to it now after so many years. Funny how the years affect how you feel about a song. I still love it though. I remember singing out to it when it was a hit one of the few top hits that I actually loved. Unlike Macarena. And it has five fucking writers! Can you imagine five people working on a song together as a team? Who’s idea has the will enough to be in the song? Songwriters: James Stafford / Scott Underwood / Robert Hotchkiss / Pat Monahan / Charles

Is a fart still a fart if you called it gold?

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Is being in love a form of addiction? Even if it’s to only one person.

Food as being in the moment vs pics as a recording of a past moment.

Once advanced enough, digital will be indistinguishable from analogue.

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First, a background to my music listening history. If I had to give an accurate guess as to how many pieces of music I’ve listened to, I would say at least 100,000 different tracks. I consider myself a super avid listener of music. I think it’s from my dad. And his love of good sound systems. I remember he bought a Philips hifi set, not very powerful maybe 600w PMPO I think. But I was so into the system I added two more ceiling mounted speakers but it was still stereo. This was in about 1993. The first album my dad and I bought was Cincinnati Pops Orchestra’s The Great Fantasy Adventure Album. Then I remember going to my friends place and discovering Winamp and pirating mp3s. This was back in 1994 I think. I was blown away. I was like wtf I can listen to music for free without buying RM60 CDs? That’s when I went crazy with buying mp3 CDs from Imbi plaza. RM10 per CD with about a hundred songs on a CD. Buying was way better than downloading cause this was in the days of 55.6kbps dial up modems lol.

These are not songs, these are mini experiences that will take you out of your body and into the world created by that legendary track. Little worlds enclosed. Little time and space bombs that will gave you a mini enlightenment if you only focus on the many layers of the track. If you open yourself truly, I feel these songs can transform your life. But only if you Open. These are the songs that will make you cry, laugh or just experience some kind of ecstasy just from singing along with it. I love singing out some of these songs. I feel I know the person who wrote these songs. And I’ve in my own life lived that song in some way.

Please do these songs justice due by playing them on the best external speakers you can. Or otherwise earphones. I’m pretty obsessed with sound so I own pretty awesome bang for the buck audio experiences. I have a Shure SE115 I bought in Tokyo, in-earphones and an Edifier S350DB 2.1 Speaker. Both are some of the best money I’ve ever spent. Worth every dollar. The Shures are the most neutral sound I’ve heard. I cannot imagine this not being 90% as good as sound could be one any earphones. I know, I’ve tried RM 40K playback in-ear systems. They’re not a 100 times better just cause they cost 100 times more. They sound good playing almost any genre of music.

But the Edifier S350DB is definitely tuned to electronic and instrumental or more instrumentally inclined music. Not so much vocals. Wish I regret. But if you listen to electronic music, fuck I cannot imagine any other systems being any much better. You haven’t really listened to dance and bass heavy electronic music unless you’ve heard it on a system with an external subwoffer. Bass is as much a physical thing as much as it is a pitch or note. Having said that, I wish I had gotten the Edifier R2800. The classic speaker setup. Always the best for most neutral sound. Basically studio monitors. But I’m thinking I wouldn’t like some of the songs on here as much as I do if it didn’t play on these particular speakers. So there’s that.

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Don’t want to visit Non Muslim country. Wtf. I can’t believe for some Muslim men, getting married and having a child is just one of the ticks to fulfill from the Quran. Like WTF.

Just watched Beyond the Aquila Rift from love, death, robots. Fuck me. Talk about hard science. There is a possibility what we saw in this episode come to pass. A thousand years into the future maybe? How many years do you think humanity will survive? If we did survive to the year 1,000,000, how would be be? Would we still have a physical form? What are the chances there’s an intelligent civilisation advanced enough that they have survived 1000000 years? Come up with sociological future instead of a technological one. The alien who exists at the end of time when all other beings have gone extinct kept misleading the ships coming through Aquila gate so it could trap beings and have company because when you’re the last being in the universe, it gets lonely.

Time dilation actually warps time. So the nearer someone approached the speed of light, the more stretched out time becomes for them. So at 99.999%, the speed of time, speed of time for an object slows down 27 times. So if a spaceship is travelling at 99.999% the speed of light, the people in it for them, 1 year have passed on while on earth 27 years have passed. This isn’t sci fi, it’s science fact. Einstein proved it. And it exponentially increases the closer one travels at light speed. So at 99.9999999999999% of SOL (SPEED of light) say, one second on the ship would mean billions of years in the universe. So if an object travels for 150,000 light-years, there is a possibility that billions of years have passed in the universe. Imagine if intelligent life still existed then. How would they be like? What would biological life’s final form be like? Technically, humans are the most advanced lifeform in a purely physical sense. Spiritually, that’s up for argument. And how would a race more advanced than humans look like? How would we humans be like in the year 1,000,000?

Ai can now make images, create stories and animate. Deep fakes, check those out. My prediction for Netflix in the year 2100 is, There will be a time in the future, we would only need one channel. And one app for entertainment. Just type in the genre or even details in it and the AI will generate a whole movie or fake documentary. So infinite movies to watch all procedurally generated in real time. Type space horror with aliens and it will generate a movie instantly based on all the movies mankind has ever made. Using algorithms much more advanced than the GANs we have now. https://skymind.ai/wiki/generative-adversarial-network-gan so these aliens would definitely be able to create something like this, or even more advanced, biologically like the episode 8 aliens. https://memory-alpha.fandom.com/wiki/Talosian I’m pretty sure that these Talosians will be able to convince someone that their projected reality is the actual reality the person they are projecting on is actually experiencing.

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Sonnie’s edge.

Some of the best 17 minutes of cinema. Perfect blend of story, visuals, music, gore, action and concepts. What makes a woman? Their body? Their ideals? Also raises the issue of women being their own worst enemies when it comes down to security and the patriarchy. Sex as a tool for manipulation, as is violence. Layers of moral and ethical questions to ponder.

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What would happen if someone takes a high dose of DMT just before their death? Would they know they’ve died? Or is there a chance they might think they never died?

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Assuming humans are alive in the year 10,000, humans have become so technologically advanced, they remade the universe and are running infinite simulations of their existance and the many possible outcomes within each to gather as much possible knowledge about living so as to live infinite amount of lives. Essentially, we are living in one of those simulated universes out of an infinite amount generated by humans maybe in the theoretical world of the year 10,000.

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Imagine if we human race are a race which are so mentally powerful they can mind control themselves into thinking they are us. Why would they though? Care to add on? So begins a great premise for a fantasy cognitive psychology feature length film.

Lunar vs solar calender.
Static vs flow.
Based on flow
Punthe gradia all flows
Menstrual cycle. Women vs men
Why did we adopt the solar vs the lunar cycle?
If we lived in a matriarchal society we would be based on a lunar cycle calender vs a solar one.

Friston free energy principle. Firuz anxiety when the world doesnt match what’s thought

In the quest to understand matter, man put his finger on matter and all he could find was a hole.

Was star treks discovery micelial network inspired by Terence McKenna?

If DNA carries information, then what we eat also carries information. Based on this what Terence McKenna says about psilocybin and mushrooms are true. And imagine the impact we have on our minds with modern day processed food like corn syrup and simple carbohydrates. It dulls instead of awakens.

Is it possible to kill someone by loving them too much?

Time wave zero 2.0

The notion of self is dangerous, it makes us who we are as much as it cages us. And I would lean more to cages us.

Thomas the doubter and Terrance mackenna

The truth does not require your belief. – Terrance Mckenna

The future of the computer will be much more like drugs. TM

If the writer can predict the ending of a book, so can a reader. It makes for boring reading

Living in a trans real way. Transrealism living

Pale fire. Terence McKenna.

Magic mushrooms growers guide

Is there a line or distinction that needs to be drawn between local culture and islam?

Humans are not constrained by their physical form.

If the afterlife can look any way you want it to, how would you want it to be like?

Seems like you’re allergic to a nice time.

If I start treating anything as sacred one day I won’t realise that all my bullshit has become sacred

Hypercar design philosophy 101. The faster a car can stop, the faster it can go.

You can have my hole but you’ll never have my soul.

Your mama spoilt you so much, your balls crawled back into your body.

Love is about balancing each other’s likes and dislikes.

Baby fav food. Rice, chicken curry gravy, super fried fish.

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The rights, the wrongs,
The perpetual songs.

The shadows and the brights,
In between the darks and the lights.

To slowly creep and force a weep,
Afraid to pay a price too deep.

To peer into the dark, hoping to be left with a mark.

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Jesus was the saviour the Jews needed. They just didn’t like what he had to say.

Internally and externally, the question to ask is, does this unite or divide?

I saw stuff and I did things, but I was not.

Meetup consciousness cognitive psychology

Scouts slapped by higher scout because I was talking and no one gave up anyone.

All possible variables of thoughts layered into infinity creating a version of oneself flowing neither forward nor backwards through time,

As disconnected as is connected. As one as is with many,

Resisting the entropy of one’s quantum strings. Finding the one slice to break the mold of definition and resist entropy and unraveling.

Flowing with the stillness of the streams and the particles of both subjective and objective.

People die. Concepts and ideas live on. What’s mine?

Actualization sparked reality

Spheres within, squares without. Lines upon a web, flowing, geometrical. Patterns, nothing.

Art is the process as much as the results.

Colossal send textures

https://qz.com/1381278/the-co-founder-of-ethereum-says-were-thinking-about-money-all-wrong/amp/ representation systems. Imagine representing oneself as something else to easier understand self.

What do I want in life? I don’t know. I’m still finding out.

Hello what is it to be access consciousness Global availability of information and experience phenomenal consciousness wide is it too late to surprise you like to smell the roses guy Philippine

Phenomenal Consciousness what is like to feel the smell the roses see the sky feel the pain

Phenomenal consciousness –
What it is like to smell a rose, see the sky, feel a pain.
Access consocusnness –
Global availability of the information in an experience.
David Chalmers.

When two AIs can have a conversation about nothing. That’s a good test of a machine’s setience.

Quotes
We are all sisters in the family of humanity and life is a cosmic giggle on the breath of the universe.

No one is broken and everyone is. Just be.

What’s the hardest thing you’ve done physically? Other than taking a Dino

I’m an analogue being living in a digital world. But one day there will be digital beings living in an analogue world.

Unless you master your past, you will always be a slave – Into The Badlands S2

I’m offended I’m not offended.

Little Red Riding Wood

Passion vs what you’re good at.

After the 2007 financial crisis, the US Federal Reserve pumped trillions of dollars into the economy, without creating inflation. In fact, the printing presses were metaphorical: those trillions were simply created by key-strokes on computers in the global banking system.

Our experiences and thoughts form the lens through which we live

Review – Zima Blue

Art by http://fav.me/dd3putv

What is art, is it what one makes or what one is? Is it big or grand or is it but one thing?

What is life, is it the beginning, or the end?
The source whence we came from is where we return to.

Are we what we are made to be or do we make ourselves? Are we born whole or do we make ourselves whole as we live?

Is the beginning the same as the end and everything in between only leads us to that conclusion?

Is complexity less or more versus simplicity?
What is achievement?
What is greatness? What is simplicity?
Is simplicity masquerading as greatness?

These are some of the questions that Zima Blue tackles but leaves the answers to the viewer to decide.

The colour too, the small, earth and water and the big, the sky, blue.

Maybe in a sentence, all extremes on a spectrum when observed from a distance long enough is simple.

If you stare at something long enough, it becomes everything.

In order to appreciate the simple, maybe we need a grand journey. Or the grand journey simply just always was there, waiting for us to embrace it.

Thoughts 20190617

The idea of a creator and meaning, greater purpose is tempting because we fear the void. Thus is left for the brave to face the void oneself and to decide then what to do when faced with. Jump in? Let it flow past? Do nothing? Doing nothing is impossible in front of the void. Do nothing long enough in front of the void and one becomes the void. Maybe that. Become the void.

Review – Game of Thrones Season 8, Episode 5.

It’s all kinds of epicery. It all comes to a head after 8 seasons. The fight set up between Clegane and The Mountain, it was as epic as I imagined. If it’s one thing GOT does well its build up and anticipation. They been building the pressure of this fight for 8 episodes and they really let the pressure cooker pop in this scene. The mountain hardly made a move ever since he zombified. He smashed his maker/father nonchalantly after penting that up for years. They been giving hints on how strong he was but he hardly fought. He just stood beside or just moved around Cersei before this, building up the anticipation of his strength and the upcoming fight.

Jaime and Cersei having their final moment together after all they been through. All Cersei ever wanted was her kid to be king. If there ever was a mother more frustrated from not having that it is she. Death of child after death of child. Even unborn within the womb. Until the end. I was weeping for her at the end. Yes I could see her love, though she had a twisted way of showing it and only for her kids. Other than making Jaime tag along.

Though I feel Euron should have gotten a much better death than he did. One of my fav fighters, besides Oberyn. His axe fighting was one of the best fight scenes ever.

And Denarys going all crazy killing everyone. That was a good one. We seen sparks of her crazy previously, and I knew she was gonna go ahead and burn it all anyway. I love how GOT fools the sheep audience into thinking someone is a certain way only to have them turn at some point. This isn’t Disney. Maybe that’s why all the complaints from people who don’t like this season.

https://www.inverse.com/article/55831-why-did-daenerys-burn-kings-landing-game-of-thrones-season-8-dany-mad-queen-foreshadowing-40-examples

Singularity Sci Fi Poetry – Rabbits Upon Wabbits

In a world where the technological singularity has arrived, it would seek to experience as much as it possibly can in as realistic a manner as possible. So it would simulate all forms of reality and experiences and live it all within it’s memory banks using algorithms so advanced it would be indistinguishable from reality. This experience of living would be every kind of consciousness simulation ideally, but since the machine is made by humans it would simulate human lives first. And if humans keep living and advancing AI, so there is a possibility that we would be able to simulate all of reality. And that reality is the universe we now live in.

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I load the data into my being and I am born again,

Living multiple lives ad infinitum,

The many experiential layers multiplying internally and externally, merging and emerging,

The infinity box generating an infinite amount of lives and experiences,

I am the surface upon which these are reflected off,

I cannot tell if I am the infinity box or I am a surface receiving the projections off it,

There is not right or wrong, no morality, no limits,

No judgement,

Only being,

Being.

All possible experiences become one and one experience becomes all.

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Reference – The Singularity Is Near (PDF by Ray Kurzweil)

https://bigthink.com/dr-kakus-universe/the-technological-singularity-and-merging-with-machines

The World is a Simulation— and ‘God’ is the Machine

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Header Art by Alex Grey