A shout out to all artists out there. Never stop creating for yourself instead of for money. If there ever comes a time when you realise all your work is paid work, alarm bells should start ringing. That’s when you lose your soul as an artist. At least here in Malaysia where a movie like Hantu Kak Limah makes the most amount of money. Always have a project you set a deadline for and pay attention to as much if not more than the jobs you’re paid for. Otherwise you’ll wake up one day and not know who the fuck you are as an artist. And it happens slowly over the years. It will get lonely though, but most truly original work stand alone. Until it connects with other souls who see it. So keep putting your own voice out there no matter how unfinished or unpolished you think it might be.
Bail and the poor
Try this, for 30 mins a day, just do nothing. Don’t think about money, surviving, looking at screens or books, anything at all. One tip to help is pretending you’re a cat or dog.
People with money always end up thinking their opinions are the ones that matter in a world where everyone wants money.
When an android plays a music piece perfectly, it is not creativity. It’s the chaos and errors that set the human spirit apart from the notion of perfection.
What if I was to live my life as an android, supposedly free from all morals or ethics or laws? No free will? Since it’s all programming anyway. No judgment to my actions? Ironically that would make my choices even more free than being human and all it implies.
Stills photography is one frame for eternity vs 24 frames per second for film. The rest are the same.
Humans are so hungry for order and patterns even when shown the most random, they will somehow find some order. And the more random and the more order that is seen, the more it says about the observer.
Watching a master movie, everything is engineered. So it takes all mental cylinders running to fully appreciate it. Or multiple viewings. Acting, music, set design, cinematography, plot and story and how it ties to all the other elements, there are too many elements to pay attention to if it’s all well designed.
Character life is too perfect make chaos
Duit for, do it.
Creativity, once defined, no longer is.
The strongest people in this world are the most vulnerable. Vulnerabilities when shared allows oneself to grow. And growth is strength.
True artists are the ones who don’t mind being ridiculed or laughed at, even ostracized by society.
When I start to realise that art is never perfect and I have to pick my stage of finish at one particular point and call that art, is what art is.
Everything and anything is right.
Why are people so obsessed with the truth? There is no one truth.
Art is making mistakes and showing them to the public. You gotta be brave to do art.
All art is work in progress. Even the finished ones.
Life isn’t a perfect artwork. It’s a perpetual sketch.
Colons lose their subtlety when overused.
The optimist believe we exist in the best of all possible worlds. The pessimist fears this is true. Hannibal
If the concept of hell didn’t exist, and eternal damnnation, imagine how free we would all be. How much more alive will we be? I wish that the concept of hell never existed.
Was in a conversation yesterday with pretty seasoned artists and art connoisseurs and the topic was culture and identity as a form of influence for creation of artworks. Everyone seemed obsessed with defining their culture or identity. Or at least seemed to think only art that is strong in identity and culture is good art. I beg to differ. Imo, the best are comes from a place beyond culture, race, identity or any form of definition. Sure one cannot escape one’s origins or one’s notion of self expressed internally in the form of culture etc, but to consciously only create art based on some form of fixed identity or culture is not all there is to art. Identity/culture worship does not make good art imo. I quoted artists like Jodorowsky, Trakovsky and Lynch and I got a backlash saying they’re all culturally influenced. Of course they are, but I don’t see them at all as people who worship any form of culture just to create good art. I didn’t even have a chance to mention people like Juan Miro, Kandinsky, HR Giger. Subconsciously sure, but they are not people I would say who are influenced by imposed culture or identity. But definitely their own sense of selves. Or an expression of their sense of selfs.
I wonder when did the rot we have in our Malaysian government start? Rahman? Mahatir? Did the British plant the seeds of it with racial segregation? Or is this just human nature within us all? Does power corrupt everyone? It seems that almost all 3rd/2nd world democratic country falls to kleptocracy, corruption and the leaders leeching off the people. Thing is different forms of government like socialism and communism also fall to the same bullshit. So I would think it’s not the system it’s us humans. Being humans. Though there are countries that seem to rise above. Look at the Scandanavians.
Bad choices make good stories
Great design simplifies a very complicated world. – Platon
There’s two ways to explore the universe. Going in and going out.
Insanity is hereditary, you get it from your children.
If you want an idea on what death is like, try to recall what it was like before you were born.
Ultra capacitor and lithium ion battery rail gun. Ion battery chargers ultra capacitors, there’s like maybe 24, and as each is discharged, the one discharged first gets recharged. As a bank to hold on to charges.
No mother is ever completely a child’s idea of what a mother should be but I suppose it works the other way around too. But dispite everything we didn’t do badly by one another. We did as well as most. – Handmaids Tale S2
sunlight emission blue green our eyes retina cones most sensitive to bg also. and camera sensors also
sunlight emission blue green our eyes retina cones most sensitive to bg also. and camera sensors also
Humans have a very narrow range that defines sanity. Most states of consciousness are insane.
To be free one needs to be able to change one’s fundamental drives.
I always like movies where the characters go deep down a wabbit hole. And they never find the wabbit. Give me some movie recommendations based on this.
What is a person if not a collection of choices? Where does those choices come from? Do I have a choice? Are any of my choices truly mine to begin with?
The matrix is a real world materialist story of transcendence and enlightenment. As opposed to a traditional spiritual awakening story.
How does a person who experiences something so alien when they come back they have to explain what they experienced in human words. Imagine an experience so foreign that our English vocabulary has no words to describe them. Imagine an experience so alien.
I don’t pretend to know how Bourdain felt and what it took for him to finally muster up the courage and strength to take his life. But I assume it must have been a lot. Our basic instinct is to keep surviving and living, to not die. It really saddens me. I cannot see the joy or the positive of killing oneself when one is physically healthy. But I assume being mentally unhealthy could be much worse. But in the end I know only we each of us individually have the right to choose to die or to keep on living. But I am happy he lived the way he did. I connected with what he said on many levels. And I’m suprised at how sad I feel at his passing. I feel I connected with him more than even most friends I have. I wish he decided to keep on living. But again I don’t know how it is to be in his place and his mind when he decided to kill himself.
And what I learnt from him is this.
You have something important to share. Share it. It doesn’t matter what it is. Don’t let anyone or anything tell you otherwise. You’ll never know who you touch and in what way. Be it good or bad. You’re a light and a light cannot shine if you hide it. Your time isn’t infinite. For every time you decide not to share a part of yourself, you’re denying someone out there your existance. And what is life not people interacting with each other? At least while you’re alive in the present sense.
The more you know the less you need
Therapy only works if we want to know ourselves as we are, not as we would like to be.
How did consciousness emerge?
If you can’t tell, does it matter?
They said there were two fathers, one above, one below. They lied. There was only ever the Devil. When you look up from the bottom, it was just his reflection, laughing back down at you. Westworld finally helped me figure out why God has such a wicked sense of humour.
I often think of film as the culmination and balance of opposites. Or at least the exploration of the gray between extremes on either side of a spectrum. Just as much as film is about escaping, it also a means of connection. I find its my task as a cinematographer to find this balance between connecting and escaping within every scene in a film. For those who find the world too overwhelming a place to learn and to live in, film is a means to focus and filter yet to keep experiencing. I myself have learnt a lot from the making and consumption of film. Because life can often be overwhelming. But then again, there is a constant struggle within film of the opposites. And finding the balance. So then again I find myself straddling between the overwhelming and the mundane within film.
Why do we like feeling powerful? Even at the cost of another’s displeasure or pain?
One way to fight the money based World we live in now is to make as much money as possible and spend as little as possible. Thus taking that created value out of the system. I’m pretty sure if everyone did this, our money based system will crash. We’re always told that money makes money, make more, spend more, there’s joy in spending. To live well is to be able to buy stuff easily. If you are not able to buy stuff easily it means you’re not successful. In our money based value system, isn’t that the ultimate measure of wealth? But we can destroy this or change it by not spending money on stuff, instead on things that matter like reducing our impact on this earth, caring for others basically. Like what in some ways Elon musk and Bill Gates are doing. But musk is a genius because he makes and impact on the environment. He feeds our need to buy stuff and have status through possession, with actions that actually help the environment. Like electric cars. Also his final drive to make us an interplanetary race. That’s just amazing. Bringing our human race to the next level where we will hopefully interact will aliens.
Would you worship and love a man who has a magic machine that would give you infinite pain for an infinite time if you don’t?
Objective truth is the source of all pain and misery in this world. And the people who insist on enforcing this truth on to others. Since they think it is objective.
On heaven and hell, and the circumstances people are born in. And judgment religions have on people. On the circumstances that they didn’t have a choice on.
I wonder how the world would look like if all our human innovation and creativity went to life and loving vs selling stuff and killing.
If they made gangs legal, the world will be a better place. Just let them do what they want. And if a crime happens, deal with that crime. Cause there’s a lot of good from gangs, but it’s always the bad side that gets all the press. A social group, teamwork, people helping each other the best they know how to make it in life overcoming their social circumstances. That’s some of the good from gangs from the top of my head.
Stupidity begins with thinking that anything has a fixed definition.
In my next life I wanna be born as a neutron star mixed with a starfish. If you were to drop an object 1 meter from the surface of a neutron star, it will hit the surface in one microsecond and accelerate up to 7,200,000 km/h.
A few people who have been trying to convince me recently had no clue about the number one technique of convincing someone. Listening and understanding vs what people do usually. Talking.
Every tombstone has to have a like/dislike button on it. So people can still keep rating and judging you after you’re dead. Imagine a whole cemetery with ratings on the tombstones.
Drawing of boxes, enhancement of current beliefs vs destruction of it. Animation make a box, and the box will be within a box or keep enhancing itself with more boxes or it destroys all boxes. Even conspiracy theories like Antares are boxes. Boxes we feed cause the truth of chaos is too much for one human brain to handle. To be happy is to know that any notions of right and wrong especially when it comes to any actions of self is an illusion. The thing is the thing. The words describing the thing is an illusion. The best debaters are the best illusionists.
Religion is preference demanding to be universal truth or dogma.
Conscious role playing vs unconscious. I decide. If it’s not conscious its unconscious but I always role play. Trying to put into reality my notion of self.
DMT and death
Only when I accept and fully live that there is no right or wrong, and when I release all illusion of self will I allow myself to be.
Finally at episode 13 I’m getting the genius of star trek discovery. The main driver of it is moral ambiguity. What’s right and what’s wrong? Is there a better way to be or is that just an illusion if infinite universes exist and there is an infinite amount of you out there, all doing everything you could have ever done, right or wrong. And it’s all being done now. There’s a sense of freedom in thinking that way. That makes anything you do free of judgement, right or wrong. Because it’s all being done right now in one of the infinite amount of universes. Wtf and the final twist that they came back 9 months into the future and the klingon won. Wooohooo…this is what I call Entertainment!
Do not regret loving someone Micheal – Sarek, Star Trek – Discovery
What if the original universe turns into the terran because of what tchalla said that humans have to conquer the klingons that’s the only way to stop them. So federation became terrans to stop the klingons. current
Best death ever lorca. Getting atomised by the power source of the universe the micillieal network.
How would the best version of yourself be in a parallel universe? Why not be that person now in this universe? Imagine a parallel universe where
How do we decide who to be in this life? What’s the best choices in our lives? What drives those choices? Does it matter what drives those choices? And who’s driving those initial choices? On what’s the best or what’s the right thing to do?
Nothing is 100% right or wrong. Anything is ok. And everything is equally neutral. When you are not imprisoned by notions of right or wrong that’s when you’re free to be you. We each individual always assume theres a best way to be, to think. But there’s 7.6 billion people out there and they all think that way. What do you think? Is that something i can assume? Everyone does think about the best way to be. And that we strive towards it. That we all think we’re behaving the best we can. But where would we get the idea to form our notions of right or wrong? Parents, friends, personal sensory input (self experience) anything we do or experience in life. And the more we change our notions of who this best person is, the more we change. It’s when you drop all judgements, that is when you’ll be truly free. But based on this logic, wouldn’t the worst criminals on earth be the most free people? Because they didn’t let social norms get in the way of what they wanted to do. They just went ahead. Hence there’s this constant struggle between the person we think we should be and the person we are. Maybe? The worse criminals don’t have that struggle. Just thinking out loud.
One of my favourite companies out there right now for innovation. They don’t hold back using the best tech. Offering amazing value for money. And always pushing the envelope for what you get vs what you pay. Kinda like Xiaomi. Of only there was a video camera company out there now that does that. Closely would be Panasonic I think. I really wish they made a full frame mirrorless video focused camera. Now that would be almost as awesome as DJI doing it.
And maybe brains like a cross between Alejandro Jodorowsky, Bjork, Einstein, Bach, Mozart, Salvador dali, Frank Herbert, Philip k dick, Anderson silva, “The Last Emperor” Fedor Emelianenko, Georges “Rush” St.pierre, everyone in this list http://www.laweekly.com/music/top-20-musicians-of-all-time-in-any-genre-the-complete-list-2401986, Buddha, jesus, all the best scientists of all time also. I’ll think of more later.
Every love story is a tragedy if you wait long enough – handmaid’s tale
Change is living and life will change me only if I let it.
What if the destination is you, it’s always been you?
Life and self is an illusion that dies the moment we stop feeding it. Consciously or unconsciously.
Any form of belief in any conceptual objective truth needs to be fed by an equal amount of ignorance.
Jesus is often misunderstood about being the son of God vs being God since what he means is there is no duality. He and we are one with the concept of God. That there is no God and us. We are one and the same. The romans hijacked his teachings to make us think there is a hierarchy. That there is a separation. A separation is needed for sin to exist. For heaven and hell, good and bad. Two sides cannot exist if there is only one side. And the one side is the reality that we are one and any notion of separation is sold to us so we are made to feel lesser than we are. That we lack. That we need something or someone to make us more or make us whole. When in reality there is no lack since we are already whole and one with this God concept. Making us think we lack is one of the best ways of control. When we think we lack, we seek to fill that lack, that void. We only have to realise that we’ve been fed lies throughout our lives. Lies in the shape of hijacked religion (used by politicians to control) and people who have a need to control and feed on the insecurities that they’ve created using hijacked religion that teaches that there is a hierarchy, a higher and lower, a better or a worse. A human or a God, a mind or a body. When in reality all those are just one. There is no room for the concept of heaven or hell, good or bad, sin, if the accept the idea that we are one with each other, one within (our own mind and body) and one with reality. That in reality there is no separation. All separation serves the cause of disunity and is the source of suffering and ego, and thinking its me vs you, us vs them. That there is a concept of right or wrong. When there is no such thing. It’s all lies sold to us to have is believe that we are broken, that we lack something and that we are lesser than what we really are. Whole.
So the way I understand it is, when jesus said he is the only way to God, I would take it as him meaning we in ourselves are a way to God. That we ourselves are our own saviours. That we can and do connect with God the same way he does. That he(we) and the Father are indeed one. At least that’s one interpretation of it. The interpretation that we are enough. And that we can be.
Am I just someone else’s dream or am I dreaming up someone else? And do we both ever wake up?
When the person dreaming me wakes up, where do I go?
Pkd ED s01ep05 were all sinners and we think we need to be punished even if our sins didn’t exist.